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Ungkapan terima kasih.
Tangan yang ingin memeluk.
Wajah yang ingin ditemui.

Terima kasih, tangan-tangan yang menepuk bahu walau jarak membentang.
Terima kasih, telinga-telinga yang mendengar dalam jaringan tak terlihat mata.
Terima kasih, balasan-balasan yang tersimpan rapi dalam pesan-pesanmu. 

:')

Age

Dear Abah,

Several days ago, Umi is getting older. It is only 4 months the gap, you and Umi. She is 60 now. I am afraid. I am worried. 

Allah called you when you were 60 yo and 3 months. 

Umi is worried if I leave her, but deepest in my heart, I am the one who are feeling the fear. I dont want to be left again. I am not strong enough now. Still, I dont have a hand. I cant hold it. 

I am so tired acting like I am strong. I really want to cry on other's shoulder. My friends are so far from me. I miss them.

People have their own world. I dont step in theirs. 

But what should I do now?

dr. V asked me a month ago about it. 

What should I do? 

I need a map to walk. 

I need someone accompanying me. 


My legs are shaking. 


It is 30

Wish

I wish, they are here. They hug me and lemme doing nothing. They do what I have to do. They let me to cry day to day. They feed me even I lost my appetize. Like what they did 2 years ago. When I thought I couldnt handle it, they lent hands.

But I should realize, I am alone. I could not cry like people, yesterday, now dan maybe forever.

Only 10 seconds, then I have to wipe all fallen tears. 

All I need is an empty chair so I could rest for a moment. 
All I need is an empty world, so nobody could hear. 
All I need is a warm blanket to cover me. 

A voice comes, it says like what he said that noone cares and loves me. 

a happy thesis



Hari ini saya ingin cerita tentang tesis, atau skripsi, atau sejenisnya. Kalau di luar negeri thesis itu ya skripsi, atau biasanya disebut bachelor thesis. Soalnya mereka tidak punya kata skripsi.
Tentu kalau di Indonesia semua kampus akan meminta kita untuk mengerjakan tesis ketika menyelesaikan pendidikan magister, namun tidak di luar negeri. Ada beberapa kampus tidak mewajibkan untuk mengerjakan tesis, eitsss ini untuk beberapa kampus tertentu ya. Dan di kampus saya, tesis adalah sebuah kewajiban ketika engkau hendak mendapatkan selembar ijazah yang ukurannya lumayan lebar saudara-saudara.